I've never spent any time with dogs. Unless you count my former warden,
who curled up with me as a wolf sometimes.
I do have creatures in my cabin, but they're not... pets. They were
my girlfriend's way of making sure I'm alright. She doesn't control
crustaceans anymore, but I still have a whole ecosystem in here.
[What else would she do with all these mantis shrimp, or the
starfish that the shrimp eat, or the crabs Iris gave her and Taylor for
Christmas? There's nowhere to put them except her cabin.]
I'll go and join him eventually. He convinced me to stay, in part for a
deal and in part because he wanted to make sure I knew how to get by
without him. It's the worst part of living the rest of my life among
mortals. I'll outlive them by centuries.
Even so, I had nothing left but revenge before the Barge. It isn't always
pleasant or easy here, but it's given me far more than it took.
I don't know if I would have graduated without us both getting attached. Part of why I was here was that the person I loved most betrayed me, and I never wanted to love or trust anyone again. He spent a long time earning that.
Iris takes me every once in awhile. She can make it so I'm not gone for long, if at all. He and his husband are getting settled in L.A. now, along with the person whose life my graduation won back for them.
I'm done with the world I came from, and I said I don't care where we live as long as it's near the ocean.
I'm glad you get to visit. That's not something I would've expected from this place. Then again, I didn't expect much of anything.
Think I'm done with my world, too. It's not a great place for me- I mean, you checking in was honestly above and beyond what I got from any of my mental health professionals. I'm not sure where I'd end up going. But I have plenty of time here to figure that out, sounds like.
Checking on you was the least I could do, and you deserve to be somewhere
you can be supported.
Sometimes inmates slip through the cracks here, and don't have that until
they're permanently paired. I know I didn't. Not consistently, at least.
That's the reason I took this job. I'm not always good with people, but it
matters to me, making sure there's someone inmates can go to before
they have a warden of their own.
[ He listens intently and is quiet a moment before he says anything else. ]
Yeah, seems like an important thing to do, especially when we're first coming through. Most of us are going to have a complicated relationship with trust. I'm sure you and I aren't the only ones who've been betrayed.
If there's anything I can do to help out with...any of that. Talking to someone who doesn't trust wardens, or- anything. Let me know?
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[ Will rubs the dog's back and kisses the top of his head. Winston wags his tail. ]
Eddie asked what he could do for me. I mentioned my dogs, and he asked the Admiral for me.
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I've never spent any time with dogs. Unless you count my former warden, who curled up with me as a wolf sometimes.
I do have creatures in my cabin, but they're not... pets. They were my girlfriend's way of making sure I'm alright. She doesn't control crustaceans anymore, but I still have a whole ecosystem in here. [What else would she do with all these mantis shrimp, or the starfish that the shrimp eat, or the crabs Iris gave her and Taylor for Christmas? There's nowhere to put them except her cabin.]
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I mean, that sounds kind of nice, actually. You have some more living things and don't have to worry about taking care of them.
Was your former warden a werewolf? Like Iris?
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Yes. And Iris was his warden, before he was mine.
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[ It's starting to sound pretty common. ]
It's good to hear this whole 'thing' works for some people, at least.
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I'll go and join him eventually. He convinced me to stay, in part for a deal and in part because he wanted to make sure I knew how to get by without him. It's the worst part of living the rest of my life among mortals. I'll outlive them by centuries.
Even so, I had nothing left but revenge before the Barge. It isn't always pleasant or easy here, but it's given me far more than it took.
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So does staying here for a bit, tough as it sounds. Are you able to go visit, at all?
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I don't know if I would have graduated without us both getting attached. Part of why I was here was that the person I loved most betrayed me, and I never wanted to love or trust anyone again. He spent a long time earning that.
Iris takes me every once in awhile. She can make it so I'm not gone for long, if at all. He and his husband are getting settled in L.A. now, along with the person whose life my graduation won back for them.
I'm done with the world I came from, and I said I don't care where we live as long as it's near the ocean.
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Think I'm done with my world, too. It's not a great place for me- I mean, you checking in was honestly above and beyond what I got from any of my mental health professionals. I'm not sure where I'd end up going. But I have plenty of time here to figure that out, sounds like.
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Checking on you was the least I could do, and you deserve to be somewhere you can be supported.
Sometimes inmates slip through the cracks here, and don't have that until they're permanently paired. I know I didn't. Not consistently, at least. That's the reason I took this job. I'm not always good with people, but it matters to me, making sure there's someone inmates can go to before they have a warden of their own.
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Yeah, seems like an important thing to do, especially when we're first coming through. Most of us are going to have a complicated relationship with trust. I'm sure you and I aren't the only ones who've been betrayed.
If there's anything I can do to help out with...any of that. Talking to someone who doesn't trust wardens, or- anything. Let me know?
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Thank you, Will. There's not much to do with people who don't trust me, though, besides wait and earn it. I can do that.
I'll let you know if I think of anything I need, though. If you'll do the same?