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Ulla ([personal profile] neverwaitslong) wrote 2021-09-27 10:02 pm (UTC)

A part of her hates him for all of it. For being able to picture a future where she's happy. For stripping away any illusions she's tried to project that she was in control of her own fate. For saying that he gives a damn about what she wants.

She bites into a piece of melon to give herself something to do besides meet his eyes. To spare her from answering him immediately, when she knows it would just come out angry and bitter. Or it could come out bitter anyway. She swallows the fruit but not her rage.

"Nothing is ever entirely about what anyone else wants." People are selfish, and he's getting something out of this too. In some ways, that's easier to accept. It's a motivation she can understand in a way pure altruism wouldn't be. But it also means he has motivation to push her, if he decides later that it would help.


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